The First Time I Wore A Tie
How to tie a tie.
I typed the words into google and clicked through the links that popped up. After searching through a few articles, I settled on a simple explanation with pictures and followed the directions.
It took a couple of tries to get it right. The thin end kept being too long, or the noose kept being too loose. Frustrated, I gave up looking at the directions and just made up my own way to tie a tie.
Finally, I managed a knot that seemed right. I stepped into my bathroom and glanced in the mirror to see how I looked.
I remember the moment distinctly. Suddenly, my heart opened up. It’s as if my heart had been locked in a cage my whole life, and I hadn’t even noticed. But the tie was the key that unlocked the door. And suddenly I was lighter inside.
It wasn’t until weeks later, that I discovered there was an actual name for that feeling: Euphoria. As in the opposite of disphoria. As in it felt right.
That feeling was my body telling me, “Yes”.
This tie is exactly what I needed. And I had no idea how much I had needed it until I slipped it around my neck.